He had the potential to be everything you feigned to fear … as did anyone else, as do those you choose and they are much closer to it, if not there already. No, he had been nice, sincere, had cared for you, only wanted to help you, to get to know you better. But you, you asshole, lied to him, made him think what was not true, a vile false friend with an ulterior agenda, while you were already turning him into what you wanted him to become to allow you to reap the whirlwind of pity for your premeditated judgement. Uncomfortable people do not blow kisses and hurl themselves upon the one they accuse. They do not send birthday wishes, nor strike up conversations. You baited him, tempted him, lured him and kept doing so even after your rejection. You put him in an untenable position because you could not be honest, telling yourself you were being holy. Holy bullshit. You were a liar, pat. Then you claimed that he was imposing upon you, after he had let you go and you would not allow it. You lied to yourself, lied to your own heart, for no one who believed what you later claimed would have done what you did. He had not meant to attack you with his warning. He had not background checked you nor driven past your house, as you completely invented. He had never even told you he loved you, and you had never told him to go away. Asshole. Liar. You made him into someone he was not for your own benefit, and, thereby, created a self-fulfilling prophecy. Yes, he tried to defend himself, and he chose a path that was stupid and unthinking, meant only to distract you from the bullshit you had invented. You wanted a “bad guy” and he gave you one. He’d always tried to give you what you wanted. No, you are the asshole, not he, and you will forever remain the asshole, fake, selfish, narcissistic, choosing assholes, choosing exactly what you claimed to fear in your greed and need for attention from pigs. You choose pigs, always have, always will. You were false, you were unfair, you were the asshole, and your choices prove that you enjoy being the asshole, and you enjoy the attentions of assholes. That was the problem all along, you liar, you untrue heart. He was not an asshole and you hated him for it. You needed him to be one, so you made him one. To stop your own heart from falling, you tried to ruin him, no matter what he did later, that was your plan all along, and the statements you made, existing in black and white, loaded with lies, and the very facts bear out that conclusion. Congratulations. You are the asshole they taught you to be, and they assuredly applaud you for it. You should be proud of yourself. You are their dutiful Abigail Williams, and he is your John Proctor accused.