People are not naturally greedy through life. No primate species is. We’re only naturally greedy during infancy, as a survival mechanism. Those who remain greedy were emotionally-stunted before the age of 8, when well-adjusted children begin to share without instruction. They do not need to be taught. Our culture stunts people.
When you labeled him materialistic, and there were no words less true, you projected your own greed onto him, your need for diamonds. You invented rationales to justify your own seeking of a perpetually-stunted man, a greedy man, the type you call “successful,” the type you were raised with and have always chosen, to your detriment. They are children, and you want that … children. And they want a mommy … to control. You do not have healthy relationships. You have infantilizations, in which you dote over undeserving brats with trust funds. That is your paradigm for love, and you have not learned. You have flipped reality upon its head, and bought into the cultural illness that creates unnatural greed.
Your characterizations of him were false, and you knew they were. And yet you smugly continue your lies. That is your choice, but know it forever robs you of adulthood, a mature love, and it screams to Heaven that you are a user and a liar. Your god will not forgive the unrepentant. That is why the idea of Hell exists. But that is not what you were born as. That is what you’ve chosen to be, let horrible men make you into. You could prove the claim false, prove your heart and your faith, but you do not. You could prove yourself of better caliber, but you don’t. So take your ugly men over him, keep them close so that they can ruin you further, and keep your lies alive until the end, in spite and petulance. You know you are wrong for it.
If you really wanted sincere love, you would have taken it. You would fight for it now, striving for it, your world’s “rules” be damned. You would demand it be given back to you, and do whatever necessary. He would have given you more than they ever could, the intangible you’ve never had, and you’d be a lucky one who found it late. He loved you true, but you wanted diamonds and shamed him for caring for you. You do not value real love, loyalty, nor maturity, for you do nothing but let it all fade away and give infants your attention. You are as trapped in childhood as they. And you can rationalize how it is he who is immature and those you choose who are “real men” until you are blue in the face. It will never be true, and you have chosen to never be true either.