You had nothing to heal from, not from him, because your trauma was feigned and you reveled in causing him as much pain as you could inflict, vengefully, dead set on teaching him an undeserved lesson when you were just as guilty. You think yourself a pit bull, but pit bulls do not lie. All you taught him was not to trust again, not to love again, and that you have no scruples.

But you won, whatever that means. And, while you pursue your shallow wants, as if nothing ever happened, the world no longer holds any wonder for him. It is cold and dark, and people are only to be guarded against. But seek your perverse, shallow fantasies unhindered by the destruction you wrought based in untruths, inventions created in sadism, and know that you did not escape your ex. You became him. 

Await karma to find you, for you repent of nothing and god does not hear the prayers of the selfish and untruthful. And when the swine you choose finally turns on you, bites you, as you bit him, as you’ve been bitten before, remember what it was you threw away in condescension, when you were the lesser by word and deed. Forever hold your shame from the sun.