Just go. Go forever. 

Go to wherever it is you think your life will change, 

Wherever you hope to find someone different, and forget that you already did, 

Only remember that you didn’t want different, but the same as always. 

Go to wherever it is you believe they will cherish your presence, when it would not have made the slightest difference to them if you had not come, and pretend for the rest of your days, 

Pretend your innocence. 

Just go. 

It has become clear that I am delusional, that nothing I believe has ever been true. 

You never had a heart to wound nor make beat faster, black and lifeless, obsessed with material gain and convenience with obscene monsters that you call “love.”

You were just a cruel joke the universe sent to me to teach me not to care, 

To teach me that people are fraudulent and self-serving, 

Cold and unrepentant, even when they harm themselves in it … 

To kill my heart, and it has succeeded in its lesson. 

I have learned, and I will not fall for the trust that has lied to me any longer. 

Go, and forget me completely. Do it for fuck’s sake. It’s what you want. 

Do not remember my face nor my love. Do not think back on anything I gave you. 

Do not feel the remembrance of an embrace shared or a laugh had. Ignore all that we we had in common, as you did then. 

Do not second-guess. Do not betray your own decision by watching me from afar any longer. You’ve chosen, now be true to your fateful resolution. 

Make me not exist. It’s what you want, so do it now. I asked you once before to end me in your mind if you did not want me, and you could not. You betrayed your true feelings, so you can never honestly say it wasn’t right. It was. But you let others decide your destiny and have adopted their hatred and inability to let yourself go and follow your heart. But do not let that stop you now. You torture us both for no reason. Do it no longer. 

Do not hear me anymore. Dash my words from your eyes, as they’ve never had any effect upon your heart. Do not see me anymore. We have never spoken, never seen, never touched. You do not know me and never wanted to. You will never call my name and ask me to come to you. So go. 

Go and live whatever shallow existence you’ve decided upon, 

But you will not take my love with you. Leave it behind. It’s not yours to keep in dishonesty. 

You live in a shallow world, in which you do not see the import of the little things nor the bigger picture. That my words expressed a love as great or greater than all the old masters who have been immortalized and are thoughts of you, now eternal themselves, doesn’t move you. Reams of love, now existing to inspire others to shun it. That I have been loyal for years for nothing does not move you, though no one else would have suffered for you the same. That you have not let me go says nothing to your closed mind. It’s all meaningless to you, of no importance, trivial. You do not even recognize the deeper meaning of your own actions. So kill me. Do it, for nothing speaks to you in your uncaring world where nothing has lasting significance, nothing is worth fighting for, nothing worth exploring, and nothing can overcome your slavery to expectations. You do not have an iron will. You have a steel cage. 

Your tears were false. 

It seems you were never a good person, just as you refuse to be one now … a condescending fraud, a vainglorious seeker of advantage, without a shred of sincere human decency, a false light in a church. You laid with monsters because you wanted monsters. That is what you find satiating. So go. Find one again. Let them spew their deceptive game to you. That will move you. 

You could not be true to me, so at least be true to your choice. Leave me by myself in my endless despair, as you’ve already chosen. 

Banish me from your mind and heart for you cannot be real, just a figment of a hope, a ghost of nothing, a phantom of a love for a soul that did not exist. 

Leave me in silence and spurn my words forever. I mean nothing to you.